dalam sakit ku jerit jerit...

just now., i bumped into a blog of a friend of a friend of mine.,

and i dont want to put the link here.,

because it might shatter me into millions pieces.. again..

at this point, i feel like disappointed for being myself which is right now.. useless..

and until this moment, im blaming myself and keep asking why i am so effing dopey and

could not do the way they do... and succeed?...

im sick of calming myself down and enjoin myself to believe the time will come..

fuq!

inspiration... i know you are there...

please...

enlighten me....

haih....

Ya Tuhan... i beg You... show me the path.....